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I was in my bed and I had just had the worst day ever. I felt like I couldn’t stop crying, and had completely forgotten that Chris and I had plans.
I heard the door unlock “Hi! I was thinking we could go out or something. Where ever you wanna-“
He paused in the doorway to my room, and completely softened.
“I’m s-sorry i just-“ i sniffled and wiped my eyes “That’s okay..” he walked over kicking his shoes off and getting in under the covers with me.
He pulled me close up on his chest and kissed the top of my head. “We don’t have to go anywhere…I just wanted to spend time with you” he reassured me, rubbing my back.
“I don’t know what’s happening..I just can’t stop crying. And it feels like everything is going wrong..” I sniffled and buried my head.
“That’s okay. Crying is good sometimes…and I’m here now, so you won’t be doing it alone” he said and i just wanted to cry again.
I lifted my head up to look at him, and he just carefully wiped my tears, smiling softly “This is gonna sound weird, but you’re a really pretty crier” he said making me smile softly “Thank you” i chuckled “I'm sorry I ruined our plans. We can still go somewhere if you want to?” I said.
“Only if you’re up for it. I wasn’t thinking anything major, just maybe get some food or something” and I felt panic in my stomach, and he of course noticed immediately.
“You don’t have to eat anything, if you’re not feeling like it, I'm just starving and I really want your company..” he cupped my cheek and I learned up, kissing him softly, making him smile.
“Okay, then let’s go” I said and he lit up.
I stood up to go “Ugh i have to find some actual pants to wear” i said since i was in pj bottoms “nah f*ck that” he grabbed another pair that i had laying around and put them on “now we can match” he smiled.
“I love you” I just said and he softened. He pulled me in by my waist and kissed me softly “I love you more..”
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I was home alone. Chris and I had been doing great and hanging out a lot and kinda slowly getting used to being more than friends.
We had hung out the night before, but I was alone and had a really bad panic attack.
I was trying my best to calm down, but I couldn’t, so I texted him.
Chris point of view:
I was watching a movie, really late with Nick and Matt.
I had hung out with Luna the night before, so it was kinda stupid to miss her, but i did.
My phone buzzed twice and I looked at it.
“You up?”
“I need you”
My heart was racing immediately. Was it a good kinda needing me? We hadn’t really done anything yet so maybe that’s what she wanted?
But I felt like it wasn’t, it seemed serious.
I grabbed the remote and paused the movie before calling her.
“Hey; is everything okay?” I asked, and heard her sniffle “I just uhm- f*ck I didn’t wake you up right?” She asked, her voice was shaking and kinda cracking, completely breaking my heart.
“No i was up, we’re just watching a movie. Are you okay? You don’t sound okay” I asked “I just had a really bad panic attack, and it was just really scary. It probably sounds so dumb I'm sorry..” she said, her voice still shaking.
I immediately started looking for my hoodie “No that’s not dumb at all, I can come over? Or you wanna come here?” I said knowing she hated being alone after those “I-I don't know if i can drive, i just-“
“That’s okay, I can get an uber and come get you or..” I looked over at Matt, he immediately nodded “Matt’s gonna drive, you want us to come get you?” I asked to sit up more.
“If it’s not too much trouble- i-i just feel like it isn’t safe for me to be alone right now” she explained and every alarm in me went off in my head.
“It’s no problem, we’ll come get you and you can sleep over okay?” I asked getting up and so did Matt “Okay…Thank you” she sniffled “It’s no problem really, do you want me to stay on the phone until we get there?” I asked “No that’s okay, just text me when you’re here” she said “Okay i will”
I hung up and put my shoes on “Chris” Nick said, making me pause cause i was kinda in panic mode “What?”
“You know you’re doing a really good thing right?” He smiled “Yeah, when she says she needs me i’d go f*cking anywhere for her” i said, making him smile “Go then loverboy” he patted my shoulder and we got in the car.
“Dude i'm sure she’s okay” Matt said, ‘cause i was bouncing my leg, looking out the window “Yeah, the call just kinda worried me you know?” I said “Yeah I understand, we’ll be there in a second''
I texted her and she buzzed me In, while Matt waited in the car.
She opened the door and my heart just completely broke. It was clear that she had been crying, and she was in a big hoodie, which was mine.
She kinda furrowed her eyebrows, as she saw me and immediately teared up “You’re here..” she said relieved “Im here..” i smiled and pulled her into a tight hug.
She made little fists in my hoodie and I was just so relieved that she was okay, for now at least.
“You wanna bring something.? The turtle maybe?” I asked since she usually couldn’t sleep without it “No no I have you” she smiled sadly and I hadn’t realised that i teared up while hugging her “Yeah, you do” i smiled i and took her hand.
She locked up and we went down to the car.
I didn’t even think I just got in the backseat with her,
“Hey” Matt smiled as we got in “I'm so sorry you had to drive this late, i could’ve gotten in an uber or-“
Matt cut her off, her voice still shaky, he placed a hand on her shoulder “Lu, i really don’t mind. Besides, we just want you to be alright okay?” He smiled and she nodded, smiling softly “Yeah I’m okay now..”
She held on so tightly to my hand, the whole way home.
When we got there, Nick was in the kitchen “We’re back!” Matt said and we took our shoes off.
“Good, Luna, can I get you something to drink?” He asked, as we walked up the stairs and Matt just went to sit by the table.
“Oh, that’s okay. It’s enough that you came all that way just to get me” she smiled looking so guilty. Nick looked like he was about to say something.
But I just turned to face her and grabbed her cheeks “Luna, listen to me okay? We all love you so much and just want you to be okay, you are always welcome here. And you’re not like a burden, even though I know you think like that okay?” I said and she teared up again but was smiling “Okay..”
I pulled her back into my arms kissing her hair.
“Now I’m getting you a pepsi, you don’t have to drink it, just know it’s there” I went to the fridge.
Nick walked over and hugged her “Everything Chris said is true, right Matt?” Nick said “Yes” Matt got up and they both hugged her.
I put the pepsies down and joined the group hug making her giggle.
“Thank you guys..” she sniffled.
The two of us went downstairs to my room, since I could tell she just needed to sleep.
“Chris?” She asked as I was turning the lights off “yeah?” I asked getting into bed with her “Thank you for reacting the way you did” she said “Of course, like I told Nick. I'd come get you anywhere if you needed me. Even if you were out of the country, I’d be on the first f*cking plane” i chuckled.
She reached over grabbing my chin and kissing me softly.
I always crumbled completely, whenever she did that.
“For a second there I thought it might be a bootycall situation” I said as we had laid in our usual position with her on my chest “Really?” She chuckled.
“Yeah” i smiled “I think I’d word it differently if that’s what I wanted” she said “Probably a good idea, you know i'm clueless when it comes to stuff like that”
She moved her leg up and I put my hand on her thigh. “I know you are,” she smiled.
“Wait where’s the monkey” she said “Right here” i reached over and grabbed him “I love that you have a like a thing for monkeys” she buried her face in my neck “Well i have a thing for you”
“Oh shut up” she chuckled and then placed a soft kiss on my neck making me crumble “I love you..” I breathed out “And i love you”
Luna point of view:
I woke up the next morning in Chris’ arms, and I had just never felt safer.
He was still asleep, so I just kinda pulled into him even more.
It took a little before he woke up.
“Good Morning” he stretched a bit and god, that morning voice.
I placed a kiss on his neck, before kinda sitting up on my elbow. “Morning” I smiled and then bent down kissing his lips softly, making him smile.
I continued to kiss all over his face “So i'm guessing you’re feeling better today?” He chuckled “Yea” I smiled and ended at his lips again.
We laid like that for a while and then went to Nick and Matt in the kitchen, cause they had ordered breakfast.
“Goodmorning, are you feeling better?” Nick asked, “Yeah, thanks” I smiled.
I was just so grateful for the three of them, especially Chris of course, but they all just meant so much to me.
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We were all going to Nessas birthday party and the boys and Madi came to my place to get ready.
It was still early, but I was running a bit behind.
Annoyingly, the guys only had to put their outfits on.
“Right, I need to calm down” I chuckled ‘cause I was stressed.
They were all chilling on the couch and Madi was starting her makeup.
“Okay I’m gonna take a shower, Chris you wanna come?” I asked with a slight smirk just to see his reaction.
His head shot up so fast “W-Wha”
“I was joking, I’ll be out in a bit”
I went to shower and dried my hair.
I had done my make up and had just finished putting on my outfit, when I heard footsteps towards my room.
Chris was also dressed and had knocked on the open door “Nick wants to know- f*ck..” he paused, as i was fixing my dress in the mirror “Do i look okay?” I asked, looking at myself.
He walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist “Is that a serious question? You look absolutely breathtaking” he smiled, kissing my cheek.
Then turning me to fully kiss me.
“Mhmm, Chris” he pulled back “Yea?” He smiled “I'm gonna put on lipstick before we go, so get all your kisses out of the way before that” i chuckled “You really think i can just plan when i wanna kiss you?” He smirked “Try” I kissed him again.
“You look so hot by the way” I said , fixing his collar and tie “Oh yea?” He smirked.
We all finished getting ready and got in the car.
The party was packed. And my first instinct was to hold onto Chris, but not that many people knew what had happened, so I kinda had to hold back.
But then Nessa offered me a drink, and that helped a lot.
Everyone we knew, was at this party but I was having a blast.
I found Chris and I just knew immediately “You had alcohol” i smiled “Yeah, don’t tell Matt and Nick” he smiled “Of course I won’t”
“Omg we have to get in the booth!”
We got in the photo booth. It was kinda cramped so I sat with my leg over him “Okay let’s do fun ones” I said pressing the button.
First we just both stuck our tongues out.
I was thinking of the next one, when he just turned my head and kissed me, making me smile.
I just kissed him back, not caring that it was taking pictures, as I let my hand up his neck into his hair and his hand kinda on my neck.
“Done” the machine said and we pulled back laughing “Well that wasn’t really funny ones” he smirked “Well that’s your fault” i said getting out.
“My fault? Oh yeah you definitely hate it when I kiss you” he smiled and I looked at the pictures, showing them to him.
“Oh that’s actually so sweet” i said “Can i have it?” He asked in the sweetest way “Of course” I handed them to him and he put them in his wallet.
Later I had been running around with Ness and found the guys and Madi by a table.
“There you guys are” Nessa said drunkenly and it was so funny.
She sat down on Nick's lap and I immediately looked at Chris “Come sit” he smiled and I went and sat sideways on his lap.
I had my arm around his neck and we were just talking to Charli and Landon as well.
They left. I just had my hand in Chris' hair kinda playing with it.
I sat back a bit more, leaning against him.
His hand was firmly on my waist holding me in place.
It looked somewhat innocent, until I felt something.
I just smiled to myself kinda knowing this would happen.
I thought for a second then I had an idea.
“Wanna go take more pictures?” I asked Chris. At first he looked confused but then understood, once I was smirking “Yeah..” he smiled.
We got up and I made sure to cover him the whole way.
Lucky for us it was gender neutral bathrooms, so we just slipped in without anyone noticing.
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We heard footsteps “Chris you in here?” Nick asked “Yeah” he said trying not to laugh “There’s cake” he simply said and walked out, leaving us both laughing, as Chris put his pants back on.
“Oh he definitely knew” I said as I was washing my hands “You think?” Chris asked.
“You could clearly see my heels under the stall as well” i chuckled “Well sh*t” he smiled “C’mon, let’s go eat cake” i took his hand and we walked back out.
For the rest of the party we couldn’t really keep our hands off of eachother.
Though we still tried our best to hide it.
I woke up in Chris' bed.
Chris was still asleep, laying on his stomach, head smushed into the pillow, looking so cute.
I turned over and just watched him for a little.
I very gently blew on his face, ‘cause there was hair in the way,
This made him slowly wake up, and smile before he had even opened his eyes.
“Hi” he rubbed his eyes and his voice was raspy “Hi” I smiled in awe. “You feeling hungover? It’s the first time you’ve had more than a couple sips” I asked “Nah i feel great actually” he smirked knowingly.
“Yeah?” I asked “Yeah” he lifted his head over and kissed me making me smile.
As he laid back and stretched I noticed the hickeys on his neck and immediately covered my mouth “What?” He asked “I didn’t realise how it would look afterwards, sh*t i'm sorry” i chuckled and ran my fingers over it. He smiled knowingly.
“Luna, go look in the mirror for me” he chuckled. I was confused but stood up, i was still in my underwear and immediately gasped
“Chris!” I said throwing a pillow at him “Sorry I couldn’t help it”
I had dark purple hickeys along my chest, as well as under my jaw.
But there were also some trailing from my chest all the way to my thighs.
“Luckily I know how to put makeup on them, what the f*ck are you gonna do?” I chuckled and got back into bed “Wear them proudly” he smiled making me shake my head.
Then there was a knock on the door and the handle started opening “You guys want breakfast? Were-“
“Nick! I beg you don’t open that door. Mostly for your own good” Chris quickly said, as i had pulled the blanket up “Why not- oh god ew! There’s food if you guys want” he sounded so disappointed as he closed the door and Chris and I just burst out laughing.
I slipped a hoodie on of his and some shorts I had left there.
And we walked upstairs “Goodmorning” Chris said all energetically making Nick roll his eyes.
Matt walked in and looked so tired “Goodmorning” he yawned.
I sat down, and Chris stretched, making the t-shirt he wore ride up.
“Seriously?” Nick said and I just tried not to laugh.
Matt looked and his eyes then went to my neck as well. A slight look of hurt in his eyes, making me get a lump in my throat.
Chris simply smiled at me, then pulled his shirt down.
